maybe youre just asexual? If you are asexual, the best thing to do is just embrace it and maybe find someome else who is asexual. There is also the possibiluty you are aromantic as well and maybe yyou need someone else in your life who is asexual and aromantic? Im not diagnosing you cause obviously I dont know you lol just suggestions lol.

Or what youre suffering frorm hasnnt been studied in depth yet? Our understanding of the human body is hopelessly infantile even now still so…

Sorry that youre goingnthrough that though 🫂